You Don't Know What You're Missing - B/J AU One Shot Part 6

[guavejuice]

Author:guavejuice
Pairing:Brian/Justin
Timeline: Post 513 AU
Other characters: Emmett, Micheal (mentioned)
Original character: Dalton
A/N:This is my first Brian/others story tbh...
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A/N2:Specul thanks to kinwad
Disclaimer:I own nothing but this story.
Comments are love

"Not so fast Mister," Justin pulls back adamantly.

"What the fuck Justin, Are you… trying to punish me?" Brian pulls his lips inward as Justin turns away and walks out of the shower.

"Damn right I am," Justin answers right back, grabbing one of the large soft gray towel off the towel rack. "You didn't expect me to forgive you right away after you pulled that stunt on me did you?" He continues, wrapping the towel loosely around his waist.

"I…" Brian starts but then stops.

"What's the matter? Are you lost for words, stud? " Justin charges away. "Go ahead then, tell me that sorry is bullshit, repeat your no apologies no regrets mantra to me. Fuck it! And to think I actually believed these words meant something. I used to think it meant being who you want to be without having to answer to anyone… I used to think that it meant not to regret taking any decision …" Justin stops and swallows hard "I know we both made some wrong decisions but hey… I used to think that we had something . I thought we were in LOVE but then… guess you don't believe in love after all do you? Or is that what you think you want to believe in?" Justin's words trail off but then he takes a deep breath. Closing the distance between them he stares intently into Brian's deep hazel colored eyes."Fuck you Kinney," he continues quietly." SAY something damn you. You've GOT to make a move to show me where we can stand don't you see that? "

The room falls silent. Justin feels his cheeks warming up and his heart races a million miles an hour.

For some reason he's reminded of another time and another place long ago. Back then Justin drifted apart thinking it might be easier to be with another guy, a guy who seemed to express his feelings so freely, a guy who promised him eternal love, a guy who even gave him a ring but then proved to be a bigger asshole than Brian Kinney ever was.

Brian shrugs and huffs dryly while still gazing at Justin. "Is there something you wanted to say?" Justin suddenly lashes out.

"I guess you're right," Brian eventually speaks.

"Don't give me that. Don't tell me what you think I want to hear. Don't try to appease me, don't agree with me just to make me happy. We've been through all that too many times before," Justin says.

"I won't tell you what you want to hear. I know you better than that. Damn, I married you didn't I?" Brian replies.

"Well if you know me so well can you please explain why'd you ran away with that Eighteen year old?" Justin flashes a bitter smile.

"He's not Eighteen… well not quite…" Brian says.

"There, you see? You're trying to defend yourself. That's not like you, you know that. A simple explanation will do," Justin says.

Brian pinches the bridge of his nose again but then look up to face Justin. "I know it sounds so fucking stupid but there is no explanation," he finally says in a lower voice.
"Were you trying to get back at me then for what happen twelve years ago?" Justin blurs out.
"You mean with… what's his face? Hell no Justin, YOU know me better don't you?" Brian's voice almost trails off now. "So you see I guess you're right. There's nothing else I can tell you besides what YOU already know. Sorry's bullshit but for what it's worth I am… sorry. It was so fucking stupid of me, but then…" he stops. His Adam's apple goes up and down his magnificent exposed neck as he's and swallowing hard.

"But then what?" Justin's voice almost softens.

"Why'd you come back here?" Brian asks, his face inches away from Justin's as both men are now sitting on the edge of their bed.

"I live here in case you've forgotten," Justin answers under his breath. "Okay since we're being honest here I might as well just tell you that when Emmett drove me here and I didn't see your car in the driveway I almost freaked out but …"

"You freaked out?" Brian cuts Justin off mid sentence. He reaches out to remove the towel off of Justin's waist in one hand pulling him closer with his other hand as they both glide slowly onto the mattress.

"I said almost" Justin smirks quietly and then shivers as he feels Brian's warm breath on the back of his neck. "Stooop!" he then lifts himself to a sitting position.

"Why?" Brian asks after a slight pause.

"Because… because it shouldn't just be about THAT, you know. Fuck I can't tell you how much I want you inside me just now and how I missed YOU too you asshole but… it shouldn't just be THAT. And besides YOU fucked another guy so it's your responsibility to provide protection again. It's been awhile…"

"Well the thing is I...I didn't…" Brian blurs out.

"What?" Justin's jaw almost drops.

"You heard me, come on don't make me repeat it twice. I DIDN'T fuck him. We didn't fuck. He sucked me off a few times but it wasn't more than that," Brian stops and pulls his lips inward.

"I can't fucking believe it! Don't tell me that you couldn't get it up…" Justin now flashes a wide grin.

Brian nods in response but doesn't say a word. "Please don't say I Told You So," he finally mutters, looking sideways at his partner.

"The hell I will," Justin almost cheers." Serves you right! Now… where were we ?" he throws himself back on the mattress but then rolls to his side and grabs Brian by his forearm. "The shower scene was just the teaser, Kinney," Justin groans. Brian moans in response but before he can take the next move Justin pins him to the mattress flat on his back and saddles himself on top of him. With his hardening cock already leaking pre cum Brian welcomes Justin inside him and as they both rock together finding their rhythm again it feels as if the past Four weeks never really happen. It feels as if all he ever wanted, everything he felt he was missing is right here with him, as it always was and always will be.

No apologies, No regrets. Well… maybe just one regret but never again.

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Comments

[7wildwaysup.livejournal.com]

Considering that they're married and have been together for so long, it seems like Brian owes Justin more of an explanation... Four months is a lot of lonely night, feeling abandoned and heartbroken...

Hugs Hon ~ Kathleen

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

It's been four weeks not for months *sigh*
IDK if Brian could even explain to himself why he waked out like that but he definitely regret that... not to mention nothing actually happen between him and Dalton ;)

Thank you so much for your supportive heartfelt feedback as always darling. It means so much to me.

[blossomlegs.livejournal.com]

At least Justin got a little say back to what Brian did. So liked that Brian wasn't able to perform, only for Justin.
Thanks for sharing!
JoAnn

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you SO much for taking the time to read and comment JoAnn. Your supportive feedback means a lot to me :)

[techgirl-on-ij.livejournal.com]

I would have loved for Brian to give Justin more of an explanation why he left with the other guy. I hope this is the last time one of them walks out of their relationship. They deserve to be happy together♥

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so so much for taking the time to read and comment dear techi. Your supportive thoughtful feedback means a lot to me.
And btw there would be an epilogue to this story soon :)
HUGS

[techgirl-on-ij.livejournal.com]

Epilogue?! YAY!!

HUGS

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Yup ;)
HUGS back

[yumyumpm.livejournal.com]

Now this was something I didn't expect. But I like that Brian didn't fuck his little bit on the side. That he's having problems getting it up. Serves him right.

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment. Your supportive feedback means a lot to me. I'm thrilled to know you enjoyed it :)

♥

[hikinggirl70.livejournal.com]

Well at least they are back together again.

Re: ♥

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this story and for your supportive encouraging feedback. It means a lot :)