Golden Boy- B/J One Shot

[guavejuice]

Banner:Viv foreverbm thank you so much!!




Author:guavejuice
Pairing:Brian/Justin
Timeline:Post 513 with Brian's thoughts on a certain event from S4.
Beta: Carolyn shadownyc thank you so much!!
A/N:Part of Family Ties mini series.
Brian's POV
Specail thanks to Manu manueladb for your inspiration.
Disclaimer:I own nothing.
Comments are love

Present Day

My golden boy left for the Golden State earlier this morning. He got a surprising offer from a small production company that were interested in turning his Rage comic book into an OVA (original video animation).

I was happy for him. It's all he ever wanted. Ever since he got the call three weeks ago he's spent his days in his studio and his early nights in the master bedroom.

I couldn't be happier, but ,as always, I waited for the other shoe to drop. I can't help it. It's not like I want something to happen. But I'm always on the look-out.

Maybe it's the fact he had to revisit the Rage phase and my fear he'll be drawn into that roller costar of emotion again… I don't know.

Earlier that morning we were tangled together, naked, panting, trying to savor the sweetness of our 5:00 am fuck before he left. I watched him. He was half asleep, knowing he's safe here, safe in his world, in our world. I couldn't hold back a smile, but my thoughts took me back to a much darker place.

8 years earlier (2004)

It's 2:58 am

I hate spending my nights alone in bed waiting for him. This Pink Posse group is messing with his mind. At first I thought he needed all that to face his demons. I should know about that, shouldn't I?
I'm the world's greatest expert when it comes to facing mine, because despite knowing what I should do, I never follow through. I just drown my own demons in Jim Beam.

Lately it's getting to be too much. I leave him messages on his cell and he doesn't answer.

I saw some nasty bruises on his beautiful back the other day that I knew were not a result of our latest session of heated fucking, which became rather intense, as had become typical, since he joined that group.

I had to draw the line when I found a gun in his drawer one evening.

He said it was just for protection.

I was terrified. I don't know what scared me the most. The fact I was so worried about him or the realization I'm even capable or losing my mind worrying about another person.

Justin isn't just another person.


I allow myself to breathe as I hear the metal door sliding open and then closing.

He's back.

He crawls into bed. His skin is damp and warm but not in a sweet, reassuring kind of way.

I feel I need to hold him close.

I feel he needs to talk.

I feel I need to ask him a couple of questions. Just to know.

I feel as if the roles between us have suddenly reversed.

"What happened?" I ask.

Silence.

"I saw him. He was… so helpless. But the weird thing was I wanted him to feel that way--" His voice broke.

My arms slowly wrap around him. I spoon him. I ran my fingers all over his naked body.

"Better now?" I ask as I feel the tension in his muscles dissipate.

"I'm over it." He says, and relaxes his head onto my chest.

That's all I need to know.

Comments

[shadownyc.livejournal.com]

Beautiful reflection of present vs. past! :D

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for your your suportive feedback, Carolyn. I really appreciate it.
*hugs*

[balrogtweety.livejournal.com]

Brian will always worry no matter what. Great fic.

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Sometimes he just couldn't hide it...
Thank you so much for your supportive feedback, Jane.
*hugs*

[kinwad.livejournal.com]

That was really, good, V!I loved the contrast between past & present. Nice job!

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you sao much for your feedback, Kin. I'm really pleased tto know you liked it :)
*hugs*

[manueladb.livejournal.com]

I loved this, Vered! Especially the second part, the Pink Posse time. Thank you!

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for your beautiful feedback, Manu. I really appreciate it. And thank you for your endless inspirtaion :)
*hugs*

[pam81.livejournal.com]

Beautiful V ♥ Well done, my dear ♥

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

I can't tell you how much it means to me to know you enjoyed it, sweetie
(but I guess you already know... )
Thank you so much for your feedback, sweetie.

[later2nite.livejournal.com]

Nice reflection on the Pink Posse drama. Brian felt so helpless when Justin needed to act out his anger.

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for your heartfelt supportive feedback, my dear Linda. I truely appreciate it :)

[bksbracelet.livejournal.com]

beautiful and brilliant

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for your kind supportive feedback, Chris. It means a lot.

[hikinggirl70.livejournal.com]

Loved it! ♥

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. I'm so glad to know you enjoyed it :)