guavejuice | A bday fic for Nastay aaa

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guavejuice
Title: Light Up
Pairing:Brian/Justin
Timeline:203
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A/N:Written for my dear friend Nastay. Happy birthday, doo!!
Project maneger:Carmen

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Based on the song "Run" by Snow Patrol (lyrics will be in italic)
Brian's POV
Disclaimer:I own nothing
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I'll say this one last time for you, then we really have do go

No, we don't. We don't really have to go. We need to hang onto each other, enveloped in each other's embrace right here in broad daylight, while your beaming smile seems brighter than the Sun.

You've been the only thing that's right in all I've done

You said right from the start that it wasn't my fault. You didn't want me to struggle with pain fear and anger while you did, but I couldn't really let it go.

I can barely look at you but every single time I do I know we'll make it

Looking at you now, I know I'll always feel the pain, but if there's anyone who could pull through and make it, it would be you.

Light up…as if you have a choice. Even if you can't hear my voice I'll be right beside you

I know that if I had talked to you each night at the hospital this is what I would have told you. I hope you feel it as I stand here and kiss you on the street.

To think I might not see those eyes makes it so hard not to cry

This is why I spread my arms wide open - to catch you before you fall. This is why I kissed you deeply and you joked and asked what that was for and I couldn't help feeling so grateful.

I can hardly speak…

If I could I would tell you everything. It's still too painful, but I hope you can feel it when my lips touch yours, while my arms don't seem to want to leave your fragile body even though you said you can walk back by yourself.

…we're bound to be afraid even if it's just for a few days, making up for all this mess

I'm not your hero. I'm not anybody's hero.

I'm scared shitless.

I could have done so much more, but it doesn't matter now. You're here. Everything happened so fast. I wish we didn't have to go through all the pain. I wish I had more time to recapture my lost youth with you. I wish you could remember that tender moment in time.

But don't you worry about all that now. When you said you weren't sure you'd be able to do it, I said I was… and I meant it.

Light up. Maybe I should too because we do have a choice.