Sorry seems to be the hardest word- B/J one shot

[guavejuice]

Author:guavejuice
Pairing:Brian/Justin
Timeline: 301
Beta:mander3_swish Thank you so much, darling.
A/N: Thank you so much my dear friends Steffi soulmatejunkee and Manu manueladb for your words of wisdom and your inspiration.
Disclaimer:I own nothing.
Comments are love.

"You should apologize to him, you know," Lindsay's voice sounded shallow as she cleared the half-full dishes from the table after the guests had left quite abruptly.

"You don't know anything, Lindz," Brian answered, clutching a cold beer bottle in an attempt to ease the pain in his fist.

"I know enough…" she continued, tenderly stroking Brian's shoulder.

"He said… he said I should have left Justin… just lying there." Brian sounded as if he's gasping for air. "He said it wasn't worth it, if this is how Justin thanks me for… saving his life." Brian's lower lip shivered and he turned his face away from Lindsay.

"I'm so sorry, Brian," she whispered.

"I don't understand how he could have said that. He was at the hospital with me that night he … he saw…" Brian's voice broke but he wouldn't let himself fall apart, not even in front of Lindsay. The only man who has seen him break down and cry, twice, was Michael. Brian couldn't understand why Michael would say something like that. Brian couldn't deny how hurt he was by Justin's absence -that he left him for romance and picnics on the floor and Ethan- but he would never have left Justin alone bleeding on the cold cement that night. Just the thought sent shivers down his spine, which Lindsay noticed.

"Please come inside Brian," she offered softly before she turned away, leaving Brian standing in the darkness.

"In a minute," he answered absentmindedly, reaching to take a joint and a lighter from his pocket.

"I'm sorry, Brian."

Brian turned around to face Michael. His jaw was still swollen.

"Is that all you have to say?" Brian tried to sound calm but his fingers were shaking as he tried to light the joint.

"I think I've said enough…" Michael answered. "Look… I know I was a jerk. I shouldn't have said that. I saw you that night… I've never seen you like that, not even when your dad died… I didn't mean it. I hope you'll be able to forgive me."

Brian let out a deep sigh and a waft of smoke.

"I miss him so much, Michael," he whispered. "I didn't think I would. I was so fucking wrong. I know that's why he left. There's nothing I can do now."

"Don't blame yourself, Brian. I mean… people make mistakes… in a relationship. He'll come around, and so will you. Plus he knows he's the love of your life, believe me." Michael tried to smile.

"How do you know that?" Brian felt the sweet smoke spreading through his body.

"Can't say. I don't want to spoil it too much," Michael answered, reaching his hand to shake Brian's and share his joint.

Comments

[mitakay.livejournal.com]

This was wonderful, lots of emotion.
Great job, said so much with so few words. :)
xo

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you much for your kind comment, Terri. I appriciate it a lot.
*Hugs*

[penelopes-web.livejournal.com]

This was so good, so emotional - nicely done!
Plus he knows he's the love of your life...
Love that part...yes. Micheal, we all know *smiles*

Thanks for sharing this,
*hugs*

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for your kindness, Melanie.

I always like how Justin and Micheal bonded over Rage *sigh* but I guess that's a whole different gapfillar ;)
*hugs*

[galehot.livejournal.com]

Say you what, I would love to see this scene on the show, Michael was a total jerk, he saw Brian and what he said it's kind a cruel.

Loved it!
Thank you

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for reading and commenting, sweetie. I felt it was right for Micheal to apologize first this time.
*hugs*

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

Me? An inspiration? *looksproud*

Okay, it's nice that a) Lindsay followed Brian and b) Michael apologized (even though I can't see Brian admitting all of that during that time - unfortunately... his life would've been easier if he just would've done!)

But I still want Michael apologize to Justin *LOL*
Not for 3.01 at the party since Justin obviously didn't hear it (so Michael should apologize to me because I had to listen to all his crap *LOL*); but for 3.01 behind the Diner and probably for 2.19, too.

Thanks for this sweety ♥
Everytime I think about 3.01 I think about the final scene and it always breaks my heart.

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Yep, you should be proud :)
Thank you for your honest feedback, it means so much to me.
*hugs*

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

[balrogtweety.livejournal.com]

This was a great way for Michael to apologize. Great fic.

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

I think he should have been the one to apologize first *sigh*
Thanks for your comment, Jane.
*hugs*

[7wildwaysup.livejournal.com]

Loved it; you really captured the essences of that moment... ~ Kathleen

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for your comment, darling. It means a lot to me to know you liked it.
*Hugs*

[moonbrightnites.livejournal.com]

Nicely done. :) God knows Michael owned Brian and apology for that (although at the time, all I wanted was for Brian to HIT HIM AGAIN.)

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Brian deserved to get an apology from Micheal first, imo *sigh*
Thank you so much for your comment, Michelle.
*hugs*

[manueladb.livejournal.com]

Great job, Vered! I'm glad we inspired you :P
It would have been nice if it had gone this way...

[minajuy.livejournal.com]

I have to say I did enjoy Brian punching Mikey, this story nicely fills in post the punch,

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Brian wasn't a violent person but I can't agree more about that punch.
Thank you so much for reading and commenting.

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, Manu. your feedback means a lot to me. I do miss our discussions so much :)
*hugs you tight*

[pam81.livejournal.com]

I’ve always hated what Michael said at the party.
He so deserved to be punched.
I like to see how Brian here is able to express what he’s feeling now that Justin has left. Great job V, thank you ♥

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your comment, sweetie, it means a lot.
I felt Brian needed that *sigh*
*hugs you tight*

[meggi63.livejournal.com]

When I saw the scene for the first time I couldn't believe that Mikey said those cruel words and I've really enjoyed the punch, it was well deserved LOL.
And I think Mikey should apologized to Justin too! But the apology to Brian was a first step.
Thanks for sharing

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so very much for your thoughtful comment.

[moonshinekinney.livejournal.com]

Oh, how I would have loved that scene on tv.

I couldn't understand Michael at all, it was so mean and vicious!

I would have loved to hear him say an honest apology...

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

I felt the same way about that scene *sigh*
Thank you so much for your thoughtful comment :)

[landlady-4rent.livejournal.com]

This scene was so heartbreaking. You wrote it beautifully. Hugs, Annie

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

aww... thank you so much for your kind comment, Annie.
*hugs back*

[spike7451.livejournal.com]

Oh how I wish that had happened on the show. Great story, liked it very much.

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, Lyn. So glad to know you enjoyed it.
*hugs*

[gemstonesa.livejournal.com]

Although I don't agree what Michael said, which was very cruel, I can see where he came from. Brian is his BFF and here is someone who hurt his BFF, parading his new boyfriend for everyone to see. Michael was on Brian's side, the problem is that Michael's mouth gets him in trouble time and time again (as we've seen many times). Thanks for keeping them BFFs. I enjoyed the fic, it made me think xxx

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Hi, there!!
Thank you so much for reading and commenting. You know I always like to hear your opinion. It means a lot to me. I'm glad to know you enjoyed it.
*Hugs*