guavejuice | Lost and Found- B/J ficlett

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guavejuice
Pairing:Brian/Justin
Timeline: 8 to 9 yrs post 513
Brian and Justin's in depth self discovery journey continues...
A/N:I wrote that ficlett over the summer vacation, but for some reason never posted it back then. As I was going through my files this afternoon, for a little winter break cleaning I found it tucked away in my files.
NC-17
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Disclaimer:I own nothing.
Comments are most welcome.

Brian gently rolled off Justin's sweaty body, and reached for the night stand to grab a cigarette.

Justin didn't say anything. His naked body was still trembling with waves of pleasure, as the excitement of his new revelation was slowly winding down .

He turned his head towards Brian. The taller man leaned his toned sweaty body against the headboard and inhaled the sweet smoke.

"Why didn't you tell me anything?" he asked, quietly, still not looking in Justin's face. His cigarette flicking in the dark.

Justin didn't know whether he wants to kiss him or punch him in the face. The asshole knew… he knew all along, a thought crossed the blond's mind. He knew there was no point in coyly replaying 'I don't know what you're talking about' because apparently Brian had already figured it out.

Justin couldn't deny that it felt nice to know his partner noticed that something was bothering him , but on the other hand he wished he was able to talk to him about it before.

Justin still didn't say anything. He gazed at Brian's body , Brian's face, Brian's dick. He knew each and every curve, every corner of this man's body. He knew all too well everything that went on in this man's mind. He's been with him since he was 17. He was his first.

Justin tried not to think about the times they've spent with tricks. That was so long ago. They both decided to do it raw long before they decided to have their commitment ceremony. It's what they wanted.

Did he feel weird about what happened a few moments ago? No, why should he? his body needed that, his soul craved that. It's not that he didn't feel totally as one with Brian each time they touched, it's just that… he needed to know how it felt like.

At first he started reading articles online about it, but it was all a bunch of crap, saying that if your partner comes before you it means you're having problems. Not much help there.

He decided he should talk to Daphne about it. She would understand. He didn't want to sound like a desperate house wife, because he wasn't. he was a 30 something healthy gay man, in a committed relationship with the man he loved, they had this beautiful house, great jobs, they were even toying with the idea of starting a family some day, but still… he wanted to know what it felt like.

Why wasn't it an issue before? Maybe because he didn't think it was such a big issue.

Brian was such a tender lover, he knew exactly were to touch him, how to make him groan with lust, and how to make him moan with pleasure.
They really knew how to listen to each other's bodies. They always had great sex. In the shower, on the living room's rug, on the sofa, in bed… it was never a competition, because they knew they could always come, Anytime.

It's just that…

"So why didn't you tell me?" Justin felt Brian's breath on his neck . Brian's voice was soft yet raspy. Justin felt he was getting hard again. Brian clearly noticed it.

Justin looked straight into Brian's eyes and sighed.

"I guess you thought that I would totally freak out if you asked me about it, you little twat" Brian sighed, and slowly slided his body back to the mattress, scooping Justin's smaller frame in his arms.

Justin tucked his messy blond hair under Brian's forearm and whispered something.

"What?" Brian asked him, playfully.

"I'm not a little twat anymore. I think you should know that by now, Mr. Kinney-Taylor", Justin's voice sounded a bit chocked.

"No, you're not. Congrats, you're a big twat now. And… feel free to fly First class anytime you like. Starting…. now". Brian reached his hand towards Justin visible erection.

Later that night Justin kicked the light summer duvet off their sweaty bodies and instinctively rolled into the warm chest beside him.
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"I love you Brian", he whispered and entwined his finger's with his husband's.

Brian hugged him closer and smiled in his sleep.

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