I cannot Forget - B/J fic series

[guavejuice]

Banner:Viv foreverbm

Icon: Carmen galehot


Author:guavejuice
Pairing:Brian/Justin
Timeline: 3 to 6 months post 513
Beta: mander3_swish thank you so much, darling!
Disclaimer:I own nothing.
A/N: part 6/7
Comments are most welcome.

Chapter 6

Justin's pov

There's a Gap and a Starbucks around the corner from my apartment, but you can't really build your future on that. I didn’t know how Lindsay and Mel thought they could.

Brian sounded a bit more cheerful last night when he told me that Debbie told him that the girls decided to come back from Canada after only six months.

It has been six months for me, but things are not moving in the right direction. My agent turned out to be exactly what Brian thought. Why are they all after one thing, I'll never know. I told myself I wouldn’t be fooled again by false promises, but I found out the harsh truth when I actually had to pay to enter a small group show where one of my small old canvases hung in a far distant corner of the small gallery. It was one of the pieces I showed in the art show when I broke up with Brian for the second time. It wasn't new.

At least I got to have great sex with Brian the night of the opening reception at my apartment, raw, once or twice, or three times, again... I lost count.

"It's not working Brian," I finally said, snuggled in his arms, my head on his bare chest, watching the first rays of daylight pouring through the blinds.

I could feel his heart beating faster against my ear. His fingers suddenly froze and stopped playing with my hair.

I got up and gazed into his eyes. My heart cringed as I saw the pain in those hazel eyes. I knew I had to stop this right away. It was too painful for both of us.

"I can't stay here. I've had enough of the New York art scene. This is not the kind of artist I want to be."

I heard him sigh. I leaned over and kissed him deeply.

I slowly moved away from him, rummaged through my bedside table drawers and pulled out my sketch pad. "This is all I’ve been able to draw in the six months I’ve been here," I admitted, and handed him the sketch pad.

He lifted himself against the headboard and browsed through the pages. There were small pencil drawings of Britin, as I remembered it, with snowflakes falling around. There were a few drawing of us making love by the fireplace in that empty huge living room, and there was a rather large, unfinished drawing of my hands holding that little black box, with two shiny platinum rings inside.

TBC

Comments

[shadownyc.livejournal.com]

I hope Brian supports Justin's choice. They clearly need to be together.

Lovely chapter.

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for your feedback, Carolyn. it means a lot to me.
oh, and your icon *happy sigh*
hugs
V.

[galehot.livejournal.com]

They can't be apart from each other.
New York is a hard place to grow up as an artist. Juststin should do what he really wants. And Brian should let him does.

Thanks for sharing!
Besos

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

You're most welcome, Carmen.
Thanks for your beautiful feedback
hugs
V.

[mitakay.livejournal.com]

Hi hon! I am all caught up on this wonderful series-
Great writing, but oh so emotional and sad...
This is heartbreaking- our boys need to be together!
xoxo

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

awww, my sweet Terri, thank you so much for your kind words, It means a lot to me. I'm so glad to know you like this series *sigh*
huge hugs
V.

[sjmpets.livejournal.com]

time to pack him up and bring him home.

say yes brian!!!

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

I guess it's time *sigh*
Thank you so much for stopping by, and thank you for your comment.
hugs
V.

[rulisteningbj.livejournal.com]

OK, now I am all caught up on this story. I feel for both of them.
They both want to be together. Brian needs to let him come home. I am sure he would be more productive at home.

Dee Dee

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for your feedback, Dee Dee.
hugs
V.

[7wildwaysup.livejournal.com]

I think you almost gave Brian a heart attack when you said it wasn't working; but now he knows that his Sunshine isn't happy living in the big apple...

But will he let him come home???

Later Darling ~ Kathleen

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Brian expected Justin to say it wasn't working... but It wasn't as final as he thought *sigh*
Thank you so much for reading and commenting, darling.
hugs
V.

[pam81.livejournal.com]

Go home Justin!!! Staying in NYC is hurting you and Brian too.
Go back to the man you love!

So beautiful V ♥ Loved this chapter =)

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

Yup, I've got a feeling he will ;)
Thank you so much for your kind warm words, sweetie
*hugs you tight*
V.